Other than being busy with work, I'm pretty much at it! I'm continuing with this clean eating and loving it. I am pretty much waiting until I have a follow-up with my nutritionist and then I blog about it. It gives me time to think and write down my thoughts for the month.
As of November 12th, I have lost a total of 40 pounds! So hmmm....let' do the math, shall we? I started on June 24th weighing in at 204.8 pounds
What does this mean? That means in 4 1/2 months I have lost 40 pounds! I'm half way there!!!!! Here is more info if you are keeping track, I'm wearing a size 10 in clothes. I'm wearing mediums pretty much in shirts.
How do I feel? I really don't think words can describe. Sure it feels good to know that I can wear size 10 jeans...
But inwardly? How do I feel? The best I have ever felt. My health is in its best it has ever been. I am due for a check-up soon and I can't wait!!! Do you know how long it's been since I said, "I can't wait to go to the doctor"? Probably never!!!! My nutritionist loves it when it's time for my follow-up. Every time it's about how I'm no longer in the severely dangerously "obese" category. How she feels relieved to know that I'm getting healthier and healthier.
It's been such a crazy journey. Where I am today just moves me to keep on going. To never stop living this life of freedom. Freedom of knowing that my heart is beating and beating correctly. That my body is maintaing a healthy weight and my joints are not in pain anymore because of the years of carrying so much weight. To work out and love it! To know that nothing could replace how my knees and hips do not hurt anymore from being on my feet for over 8 hours. To be honest, I feel like I don't get tired anymore. What I mean by this, at the end of the day, I don't feel bloated, my feet aren't swollen, I don't feel like food consumed me throughout the day and when I go to bed, NO MORE TAKING TUMS!
Let me tell you, if you are still struggling with your health. If you feel like you can't even make a dent in your weight or just feeling like you can't endure just a basic 30 minute walk...something is wrong. All I'm saying is that "it is not worth eating unclean if everyday you feel this way". It's not! And to be even more honest, the older one gets, the harder it is to maintain. At the age of 47 1/2, I want to feel good on the inside. I want to know that I am not struggling to breathe just to walk around. That I'm not hiding my body with loose fitting clothes. That I'm representing myself for God in a correct way not only on the inside but outside.
Do I have flaws? Yes. Do I want to eat a cheeseburger? Yes. Do I want to eat cheese? Yes. Do I want to eat pizza? Yes. But it's not about what "I can't eat", it's about "I don't want to eat this, because later on I'm gonna feel bloated. Later on I'm gonna have swollen ankles. Later on my blood pressure is going to go up. Later on I'm gonna have to pop more tums. Later on my clothes don't fit. Later on the doctor tells me I'm diabetic. Later on I have a heart attack" Get the picture?
Will I eat a cookie? Yes. Will I eat pizza? Yes. Will I eat pasta? Yes. Will I eat cheese? Yes. Like I said, I have flaws. But here is what I have learned in all of this. This is where I feel like "I do not have to back track". I am not claiming that I have this nipped in the bud. I am not claiming that I have arrived and I'm done when I lose the rest of the poundage. I am not claiming that after it's all said and done, I can resume my normal eating. What I'm saying is.....
I chose to do this for me. For the right reason-me. And choosing to do something that is right for yourself, you LIVE IT. You do not "make an excuse" for eating the slice of cake. You do not sit there thinking, just today I will do this. When we live our lives on a daily basis, that includes mistakes and all. That includes the good and the bad. That includes making the right choices. When I do have a slice of cake, or slice of pizza or cheese....this is what goes on in my head...."how bad do I want this", "what is this going to do to my digestive system", "what is in this"....after I ask myself those things, the next that goes on in my head, "is it worth it"? And then I go for it. I either eat it or I don't . When I do eat it, I cut it in half. Why? Because I will eat it all. Usually anywhere we go out to eat or even what we serve ourselves is always too much! I scrape off something. I savor it. I usually say, "it's too sweet" or "it's too salty". By saying this out loud, I hear it and realize, "yep, this is what got me into trouble from the start". So yea that's pretty much how I process stuff.
So let me end with this. Is it worth it? Is it worth it? I finally had to stop lying to myself....
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| Picture of Left: Oct. 4, Picture on right: Nov. 13 |
