"Figure eight as double four
Figure four as half of eight
If you skate, you would be great
If you could make a figure eight
That's a circle that turns 'round upon itself"
If you could skate, you would be great....If you could run, you would be great...
This is the actual thought that came to mind when I realized this....
On my February 13th follow-up I was given the news: YOU ARE NO LONGER IN THE HEALTH-RISK CATEGORY! YOU HAVE 38 POUNDS TO REACH YOUR GOAL!! My weight is 158 pounds...I am finally under 160! Whew...158 lbs. coming from 204 lbs....WOW!!!!!!
On February 20th I registered to run my first 8K on March 8th.
Whew...a lot has been going on in the month of February!!!
When I met with my nutritionist she challenged me NO SNACKING...NO PICKING this next round (or ever). Let me tell you, do you know how hard this is? Do you know how hard it is to walk by tortilla chips and not shove some in my mouth? To walk by a jar of mini 3 musketeer bars and not eat like 3 or 4? To sit through a movie without eating 3/4 of the tub of popcorn or any of it? To not order Mr. Pibb at the movies? So yes....I made a vow to ME....and my NUTRITIONIST.....I WILL NOT SNACK OR PICK! I am on day 11 that I am 100%!! This is hard. This is challenging......but hey I'm always up to a challenge!!! Which leads me to today's blog...
Yesterday I experienced this on a run. I signed up for a group run at 5:30am. First time ever!! I am not a morning person. The only reason I signed up for this run was to demo some new running shoes from Brook's Shoes. I love these shoes and they have been my choice of shoe for running. This run we were given the opportunity to demo the shoe on a run. So yea, I signed up for it! Let me lay out the morning's event....
>Alarm set at 3:40am...got out of bed at 3:50am
>First thing in my stomach/body.....STRONG COFFEE!
>Got dressed, got my breakfast ready for the after run, let's go!
>Drove to the store and was the first one to arrive (other than the owner that was there to open up)
...at this point I'm getting nervous...
>Got off the car when the Brooks Rep showed up. I helped her unload her stuff and set up.
>Other runners started arriving....I'm getting more nervous...
(Let me insert here...runners just like any other "group" have their own world. This is where I began to feel intimidated...no one talks to you...I'm okay with that...it's too early anyways....this small group of runners always meet to run, so they know each other....but like any other group, that you are new to...you just have to suck it up....this is the point which makes you or breaks you..this is the point where you choose to DIVE IN! So I did! I began to introduce myself...I began to ask questions...I began to just DIVE IN! It was either this or walk away DEFEATED...and the run hadn't even started yet!)
>Time to get our shoes on
>Brook's Rep was so kind and informative and helpful
>I start warming up...still feeling nervous because I don't even know how far we are running or the route
>one of the runners that is there to run was The El Paso Marathon Female Winner of 2014
...yep now the feeling of inadequacy sets in...there were other marathon runners
>Brook's Rep was so kind and informative and helpful
>I start warming up...still feeling nervous because I don't even know how far we are running or the route
>one of the runners that is there to run was The El Paso Marathon Female Winner of 2014
...yep now the feeling of inadequacy sets in...there were other marathon runners
>Everyone starts walking out of the store to run
>everyone is gabbing and me...freaking out
>we get to the traffic light and everyone is taking off
>we get to the traffic light and everyone is taking off
>I panic, but hey I can handle this...I ask out loud...so what is the route? how far?
>and just like that, one guy says "to Traewood St. and back is 3 miles" and boom they were gone! (here is another insert...I am always telling my family...If you don't know ASK...don't feel embarrassed because your question might be stupid or you will reveal to everyone that you do not know! JUST ASK! I still believe in this...)
>I see everyone take off...and me....freak out mode sets in...but I start running...I hit play on my music
>I see the runners fade away...but 2 flashing lights that 2 of the runners had on them....it's 5:30am..dark
>I begin to feel like a failure...I realize that I am LEFT BEHIND....
>I then make a choice...FAIL...STOP....TURN BACK AND GO HOME..YOU BIT OFF MORE THAN YOU CAN CHEW!!!! WHAT WERE YOU THINKING....TOO SOON!!!
>Nope...I ignore the flashing lights fading away...I listen to my song...and I run!!!
>And that was it...MIND SET OF FEELING INADEQUATE....GONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
>When I get to Traewood, 2 runners are already heading back...I ask the one guy that has been nice, where is the 4 mile mark?????
>He says..."Applebee's and back is 4 miles".....
>When I went to bed the night before I had set in my mind that I was going to run 4 miles...so yeah..I ran to Applebees...
>I make my way back...it's still dark....the smell of wet desert is refreshing...early commuters are heading to work....my song list is blaring in my ears...I am in my element!
>I see the end....I made it! The 2nd time ever to run 4 miles......
>I then laugh to myself as I am walking back into the store...."I was the first one to arrive for this run and I am the last back from the run" 6:15am
>I walk in and the few that are still left, quickly ask me, "how was the run"
>And right then and there I dropped all INADEQUATE thoughts and said, "It felt good. It was the 2nd time ever that I ran 4 miles."
>And then it happened, "Good job", "Way to go", "you had a good pace", "you got this"
>And then the questions started...who are you, what got you running, etc.....
>I shared. I laughed. I made new friends.
>One runner (guy) who is a marathon runner began to give me tips....so helpful!
>Another runner was leaving and turned around and said good-bye, shook my hand and said, "you should join us every Wednesday and Friday at 5:30am" (I think I might)
>I bought my shoes
>the husband got there with my breakfast
>the husband got there with my breakfast
>got some free stuff from Brook's Rep
>got in my car and me and hubby went to get some coffee...and the sun was greeting us....
So yes, when I am faced with a challenge like NO SNACKING OR PICKING, 4 MILES, PIZZA, WHATABURGER....FOOD...........I know I can handle it....MOMENT BY MOMENT...because I choose to LIVE LIFE!
On March 8th for my first 8K run, I am dedicating this run to my nutritionist. I told her that she has brought me to a point of ACCOUNTABILITY, DETERMINATION and EXCELLENCE. She could be nice to me and let me cheat...but NOPE! She tells me the TRUTH...and believe me...the TRUTH WILL SET YOU FREE! To know that I am no longer in the HEALTH-RISK Category...to know that I am 38 pounds away....Thank you Georgina Fourzan for teaching me. And I say "teaching" because I have learned. And once you learn....you live it....
FREE TO RUN!
FREE TO LIVE!
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| Here is my pic of my Feb. 13 Check-up! Check out those lean legs....EXTRA BONUS...the T-shirt I have on...given to me by my nutritionist as an incentive....SIZE SMALL!!!!!!!!!!! |
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